So...this is my second journal in almost the year I've had this account. So much has happened and I don't normally talk about it or right about it, but i feel right now its the only thing i can do. So many emotions and I don't know how much more i can take before i explode, myself.
I've been thinking about new years resolutions because i haven't made one, but then i thought why make resolutions? i rather set goals for myself. the most obvious one would be stop being a fat ass. because i am one. the next one would be to make everyone happy including myself if possible. I'm going to try my best to please everyone's needs, i hate it when people are upset because then I'm upset and i get sick and depressed.
Another goal is graduate high school. that would be wonderful,you know? pass all my classes have a good cumulative GPA, go to the college i wan't. Which would be amazing and if i get my way one of my best friends will be coming with me and we plan to try to room together and everything.
which brings me to my next topic, i love Loki so much, she has been there for me in the past two years more then a lot of people. she listens to my crap and i don't feel bad telling her all about it, i don't feel like I'm being a complete bitch about it and making everything about me. to me that means the world. so thank you Loki.
And to my other friend, you know who you are. thank you too, because you have been there even though i push you away. No matter how much I say I'm okay you guys know I'm not and stay there for me. I try my best to do the same for you guys but i feel like i do it wrong. So I wan't to learn how. I'm really sorry for past mistakes I've made and future ones too before there made.
I don't know what else to say...I'm just gonna try my best to be the best friend i can.